The Day I Stopped Being An Atheist

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Where I Started

After leaving the church at the age of 12, I began my journey toward atheism. For 20 years, I believed in the big bang theory, humans were from a cesspool of algae that just happen to be perfect for life, and I began to walk because of my ancestors, fish that learn to live on land and apes that started to walk and think.

I believed there was no God, the Bible was written by man (albeit true, I didn’t believe it was Holy Spirit inspired), and that when I died, well, that was it. 

And as I see this written on paper, I’m saddened by the fact that I lived with no hope for 20 years. 

So, how did I change? To use the term differently, “evolution.” It was the evolution of my thought process and the evolution of my selfishness to selflessness. 

You see, it was the fact that I had just had a daughter born that made me ask even more in-depth questions than just taking evolution at face value. To see my baby being born made me ask “how”? How does something this beautiful come from a cesspool of algae or monkeys? It made me ask “how can something so delicate, so perfectly made, so needing my intervening to survive, just happening over billions of years or even trillions of years?” It made me ask “even if this process happened a trillion times, how does it create two, male and female to continue on for generations?”   

Created, not Evolved

Just to look at a baby and think of all the things that keeps it together. Skin, bones, breathing, heart beating, and the symphony of cells all communicating to make sure it doesn’t stop till it’s supposed to. They grow, they age, they heal themselves, and then they begin to think for themselves. In my former life (that of an atheist), I believed in evolution, that is the evolution of something from nothing. WOW. That is hard to get my mind around now. 

When I realized the impossibility of evolution the way I believed it, that changed how I thought. I began to seek the why’s, the what’s and the most critical question, who? My baby had to be created, not evolved. And if she was created, then I better figure out who was the creator and why she was created. That led me to God, the God of the Bible.

Selfishness to Selflessness  

It took me two years to come to the realization that it wasn’t all about me; this was the evolution of my selfishness to selflessness. I had a baby to take care of, and I couldn’t think about “me” all the time. And when you’re not focused on yourself, you have a chance to think of others, and that to me opened my eyes. It opened them to the fact that there is something bigger going on and that someone bigger was involved. 

If you are an atheist reading this today, just take a moment to think less about yourself and more about others. You might just see the truth, and we all know what happens when you do…The truth will set you free!  “So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, ‘If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; 32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.’” John 8:31-32

Author: Jody Burkeen, Man Up God’s Way



  1. Selemani Matei

    Thanks very much for this words of God. I received some things. I was passing in a big challenge of life but I know God have a some things to teach me.

  2. Chris Cundill

    Great write-up. Cheers!

  3. Nate

    I have been a Christian for over 45 years and at times in my mind I have a hard time understanding that there is someone who created this world. Like Mary, I remember the faithfulness of God and my personal experiences with Jesus. The enemy wants to destroy our faith and keep us from receiving everything that God has for us. I have learned not to go toe to toe with Satan but like Michael the archangel who disputed over the body of Moses, I often say “the Lord rebuke you. He fights my battles and gives me the victory. It is our faith that makes us different and it comes from Jesus himself the Author and finisher. He started it and He Will complete it.
    Speak and memorize God’s Word and you will overcome. God bless!!!

  4. Paul

    These posts I get from your email list are very encouraging to me. Thank you for your ministry to men.

  5. Janette

    Well, I’m a Christian woman (so my apolgies if I’m not really supposed to be here). I stumbled across “Uncommen” whilst looking for a new bible plan to read and although aimed at helping men to grow in God, I just felt that little nudge from Holy Spirit to start the plan _as a means to understanding men, better__specifically and foremost, my husband__and I found it to be very helpful. I saw a lot of my husband in the men this was addressed to and I feel better equipped to know how to pray for him, as a result. Very helpful. Thank you.Keep up the good work.

    • Tj Todd

      Janette, all are welcome here so please feel free to read and give feedback anytime. We’ve had several women writers for Uncommen as they help us get a perspective of what a woman looks for from a man. Pray for your husband and direct him to Uncommen to start to read some of our content.

      Thank you
      Stay Uncommen


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