Where I Started
After leaving the church at the age of 12, I began my journey toward atheism. For 20 years, I believed in the big bang theory, humans were from a cesspool of algae that just happen to be perfect for life, and I began to walk because of my ancestors, fish that learn to live on land and apes that started to walk and think.
I believed there was no God, the Bible was written by man (albeit true, I didn’t believe it was Holy Spirit inspired), and that when I died, well, that was it.
And as I see this written on paper, I’m saddened by the fact that I lived with no hope for 20 years.
So, how did I change? To use the term differently, “evolution.” It was the evolution of my thought process and the evolution of my selfishness to selflessness.
You see, it was the fact that I had just had a daughter born that made me ask even more in-depth questions than just taking evolution at face value. To see my baby being born made me ask “how”? How does something this beautiful come from a cesspool of algae or monkeys? It made me ask “how can something so delicate, so perfectly made, so needing my intervening to survive, just happening over billions of years or even trillions of years?” It made me ask “even if this process happened a trillion times, how does it create two, male and female to continue on for generations?”
Created, not Evolved
Just to look at a baby and think of all the things that keeps it together. Skin, bones, breathing, heart beating, and the symphony of cells all communicating to make sure it doesn’t stop till it’s supposed to. They grow, they age, they heal themselves, and then they begin to think for themselves. In my former life (that of an atheist), I believed in evolution, that is the evolution of something from nothing. WOW. That is hard to get my mind around now.
When I realized the impossibility of evolution the way I believed it, that changed how I thought. I began to seek the why’s, the what’s and the most critical question, who? My baby had to be created, not evolved. And if she was created, then I better figure out who was the creator and why she was created. That led me to God, the God of the Bible.
Selfishness to Selflessness
It took me two years to come to the realization that it wasn’t all about me; this was the evolution of my selfishness to selflessness. I had a baby to take care of, and I couldn’t think about “me” all the time. And when you’re not focused on yourself, you have a chance to think of others, and that to me opened my eyes. It opened them to the fact that there is something bigger going on and that someone bigger was involved.
If you are an atheist reading this today, just take a moment to think less about yourself and more about others. You might just see the truth, and we all know what happens when you do…The truth will set you free! “So Jesus was saying to those Jews who had believed Him, ‘If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; 32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.’” John 8:31-32
Author: Jody Burkeen, Man Up God’s Way